I did some self-reflection every night before I sleep after that conversation with my relatives.

Sometimes, whenever I had nothing to do at home, I would be going to my 2nd home, my grandparents’ place. Somewhere where I could de-stress. That day I went, chatted and all. Den it came to a conversation when my uncle and aunt were talking about their past when they were young. I joined in their conversation. Uncle started saying, when they were young they were very poor, and have to 半工半读. Inside me, I was quite sad la. (Ur may find that this is just a minor stuff, but to me it was more.)
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Well, when he talked about my Dad. My dad is someone who dislikes studies. Still remember what my grandmother said, she everyday sent my dad to school by school bus den he would walked back home. Distance between school & home was far. Den whenever, he did badly for his exam, my grandfather would punished him severely.
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When my dad, aunt and uncle were at our age, they were very much different from us teenagers nowadays. As I mentioned, they were poor, so there’s only 1 television at home. So whenever my dad or aunt wanna watched different channel, they would fight! And my uncle is the peacemaker.
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Presently, my Dad feared that my family will go poor and kept working and working, my mum too. Till now, I still can sense that the fear in him is still there.
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By then, my eyes were red and tissues were wasted by me! Den they moved on to my brother. One very strong phrase to share, “人之初，性本善” This phrase has left a great impact in me. My brother had changed a lot which lead to my relatives’ attention. I admit that I had once left hatred in him but after hearing these, I realized I shouldn’t. Every one is born to be good. Not evil. What had lead my brother into these was less communications between us. Not only COMMUNICATIONS, influences from the ENVIORNMENT plays a part.
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I cried lots and really let out everything on that day. I learnt a lot.

Hearing all these let me wanna work even harder though I find it hard to communicate with them. This is my fear where it had lies inside me for long. We should not take life for granted. Now, I won’t feel lonely though sometimes does.

I have my family to support me.
I have my relatives to back me up.
I have my always-be-there friends to hear me out.

Thanks for present, I will lead my future fruitfully.